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May. 9th, 2010

Life's Good

Once in a while, we get into the what-I-wanna-be-in-the-future mood.
Then we start thinking about our ambitions and dreams.
When I'm in that mood, I'll start asking people what they would like to be in the future.
Most replies were of, " I don't really know." or " I'll see what the future can offer me."
Absolutely hate it when people answers are I-don't-know-s..

For me, I love thinking about the future, thinking of arguments for and against each dream.
My #1 dream is to be a dancer.
Random as it seems, but I've actually thought about it since primary school.
There's so much excitement and energy in dancing.

And then, I'll go to the birthplace of Hip Hop, Korea, to continue my 'career'.

I would remain in this career until I'm 25.
Then, start to get a proper job and earn money.

If only I could make this happen..
How nice would life be ~

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Feb. 11th, 2010

Its a cold cold day.

Rain. Hail and then snow.
Pretty cool day..
Its so cold today..
The weather is getting weird.
A few days ago, it was so warm until we thought we would be entering Summer soon.
And then, it just turned so cold..
Well, tmr's even colder with temperates ranging -1 to 5.

Going back to Singapore tmr too :D
Excited.
Can't wait.
But the pile of homework is waiting for me....

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Jan. 24th, 2010

Universities.

Ha Ha Ha Ha Ha !
Finally received my last offer from UCAS.
All five UK universities that I applied to gave me an offer.
They are as follows:
Aston University
Leeds University
Briton University
University of Liverpool
European Business School

Well, not many people get all 5 offers.
I'm quite fortunate to have all 5.
For that, I'm proud.

But, my mummy prefers me to go to Singapore's University.
The main reason is because overseas life is expensive
Especially in places like the UK.

Another reason is that my brother would most probably need to go overseas for university because of his poor results.
And on the hand, would have a better chance of getting into Singapore's universities.

Anyway, I dont mind studying anywhere in the world.
I know I can make myself happy no matter where.
And studying in my own hometown would be better as I would feel more comfortable as I go through my university life.

Jan. 17th, 2010

Can You Dress More Femine-ly, You're A Girl

I totally hate it when people tells me to be feminine just because I'm a girl.

Come on man.
Welcome to the 21st Century!

This is the century when gender is no longer a defining statement. Girls look like guys and vice versa.

Get out of your room. Walk down the streets. Some guys look like total chicks and some girls look super gungho. You'll see guys infront of the mirror for hours combing their hair and trying to look pretty while girls are starting to have really short hair walking around with baggy jeans and sneakers.

Stop being a stereotype. Stop living in your world where girls only wear skirts.

And since when did I ever need your advice on clothes?
Look at yourself in the mirror before telling me what to do.
Stop telling me to wear skirts.
I wear pants whenever I want.
I decide when I wanna wear skirts.
Not when you ~~fucking~~ ask me to.

I bet I look better in pants than you.
Are you jealous that I look good in pants but not you?
Oh.. That sucks dude..
Cause guys can only wear pants right?
So, if you look shitty in pants, doesnt that make you sad?

Oh ya.. I forgot..
You are sad.
You only live in the World of Warcraft.
Always in the corner of the common room playing WOW.
And mind you, you look ~~fucking~~ disgusting when you're playing WOW.
Actually, not only when you're playing WOW.
All the time, to be precise.

Keep your sad life, sad comments and sad face out of my sight.
And hope you have a good life. NOT! :D

P.S. Readers, I really hate that guy.

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Jan. 11th, 2010

First Snow

Yo Man ~!
Saw snow today..
S
N
O
W
SNOW!
Super cold la..
LOL.
Shall elaborate more again next time..
Look at the evidence!

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Jan. 10th, 2010

成长中的寂寞 / 家庭里的多余

总觉得自己和家人好像越走越远似的。
话越来越少了。
我的家庭分散了吗？
虽然在家里，但常常因为感到太寂寞而偷偷的流泪了。
怎么办？我也不想这样的。
每次看到妈妈和妹妹那么开心，就不由得心里一阵羡慕。
我也想加入她们的圈圈，但因害怕破坏她们的幸福所以就仍然保持着距离。
三个人在一起时，一定会有一个人会被冷落。
虽然很不想当那个人，但也不想让她们任何一个被冷落。
所以，就自然而然的站在圈圈的外侧。

寂寞是成长必要的一种的过程吗？
自从搬来上海，就常常和寂寞碰面。
以前，心理的空虚是用无尽的男朋友来填。
如今，不再想要靠男人时，却不知如何是好。
我呢，不喜欢交很多朋友。
朋友一多，在人群里心会更加的空虚。

我常常发现我会不知不觉地恨自己的妹妹。
恨她比我更受爸爸妈妈的宠爱。
每当我问爸妈为什么对妹妹比对我和哥哥更好时，他们都会说因为妹妹是最乖的。
因为妹妹很可怜，小时候就没有童年。
那请问，我和哥哥的青年是不是因为妹妹所谓的童年而有理由被忽略呢？
我知道这样很自私所以，我从来都没开口问过，只有把它默默地发泄在博客上。

我从小就一直认为妹妹毁了我的美满家庭。
如果妹妹没出的话，我们的家庭会是多么的美好。
我们的家其实有四个人。
双双对对，不会有孤单的人。
但，一加上了一个成员，就注定有人会被忽略。
十几年来，我都一直这样认为。
以前也是，现在也是，后来也是。
我之所以对她有如此的成见是因为她抢走了我的家庭，我的幸福。
弄得我从小就向外投靠。

她从小就被爸爸妈妈宠坏，所以表兄妹都不喜欢和她在一起。
她是一个很狡猾的人。
在爸爸妈妈面前就装作成被欺负的小绵羊，转头就变成了狐狸。
就因为被宠坏了，爸爸妈妈对她是百般呵护。
她也知道自己是家里最厉害的。
只要一滴泪，一阵哭声，她就是大赢家。

可也因为她，我变得那么独立。
有了她，我尝到了世界的不公平，尝到了寂寞，尝到了仇恨。
我该谢谢她赐给我的生命悟道。

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Dec. 26th, 2009

My Crush - T.O.P

I felt I had to post something about my crush now.
Some introduction of him.
He is from the popular korean band Big Bang (빅뱅).
He is the rapper of the group and an actor in South Korea.
He's name is Choi Seung-hyun/최승현/崔勝鉉 or rather just T.O.P
I think he is really good-looking and charming.
I love his eyes.
Check out my laptop background below

He is really good-looking right?
Admit he's good-looking!
Say it! Say it!

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Post-Christmas

mood:

blah

music: 10 out of 10 - 2pm

This year, I enjoyed Christmas the most.
Maybe because we don't usually celebrate Christmas.
I don't remember the last time we celebrated Christmas.
Anyway, I got 2 Christmas presents.
1. ASUS laptop :D
2. Perfume & soap set

Super happy. Both are what I want.
I was good this year, that's why.
I'm probably on the Nice List :D
Haha..

Anyway, studying Biology now.
Exams are around the corner...
NOOOOOO!!!!

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Dec. 24th, 2009

Christmas Eve

Why is it that i feel lonelier in my home country than in a foreign land?

Everyone that used to be part of my life seem to have their own lifes which excludes me..

I guess distance still makes a difference.. Well, only about 10Days left before I'll be on the plane again.. I'll just put up with the lonely shadow hovering around me..

My New Year's Resolution:
1. Learn not to trust people so easily.
2. Be more decisive and determined to carry out my decision.
3. To be a strong person who always smiles even when confronted with a storm.
4. Become an independent person who doesn't need to rely on anyone.
5. Be able to score well during the remaining tests and exams.

While thinking of my resolutions, i realised that resolutions are more of reflections/lessons of the past year.

Let's see how many resolutions i can achieve next year..

Dec. 8th, 2009

Today's Diary

music: Heartbeat - 2PM

I thought you weren't coming to school.
I was so happy when I saw you walking out of the boardroom.
For a second, I actually thought I was dreaming.
My heart was beating so hard then.
And I kinda stood there looking at you.
Cause I didn't know how to react.
Even though I just saw you yesterday, it's different.
Cause yesterday you said you weren't coming to school today.
So I though you're really not coming.
Anyway, it's really cool.
It's the first time I had a i-thought-i-was-dreaming scene.

However, I know that the reason you changed your mind on coming to school was probably cause of some girl.
And, I know she'll never be me.
I admit I did thought it was me.
But, I thought again.
I know my status.
Friend.
'Friends' is enough for me.

6 months.
That's all we have.
Haha.. Come to think of it, we've really been through alot.
10 days in Cambodia.
Probably the happiest 10-day.
Even though I broke my specs and was almost penniless.

I love you.
In a way that I know I will never be with you.
I love you too much as a friend.
But too little to be the one.
It's a weird feeling.
Maybe cause I've been used to girls hanging around you that I no longer feel jealous anymore.
So even if its jealousy, it only hits me as a unknown feeling.
Too weak to be jealousy, but too strong to be unfelt.

I guessed after 2010 May, we would not see each other anymore.
So, I hope whatever's between us now stays as it is.
I dont want it to improve nor fade.
If I were to see you 2 years down the road,
I hope you would regconise me as I know I will never forget you.

I remember the hugs, I remember the kisses.
I remember the words - heartwarming or hurtful

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